Love and War

It was six years ago on Remembrance Day that Forest popped the big question. His obvious nervousness took away any element of surprise but he made up for it with a beautiful speech and ring. A ring so beautiful that it won us free champagne at our lunch spot. When I look back at the …

Happy Birthday Matthew!

My little brother with hair of gold and eyes of blue, today you would be 32. I wonder if you would have been a single dude Or celebrated with a family of your own. Today we put five candles on a donut and sang happy birthday. We celebrated that you were here to celebrate your …

Reflections on trying to Conceive

Every time I get my period I feel like someone has died. That potential child ushering in a new life and world for our family. The rush of excitement, the announcements, beautiful swollen belly and newborn cuddles, Elaina being a big sister. The days of my cycle have reached mid twenties, I am soon anticipating …

New page

Hi everyone! I added a resources page to my site with recommendations for different apps, recipes and books. I will update occasionally and please comment below if you have anything to add!

What would you do?

I am trying to process this article I found about a woman being raped on a Philadelphia train while bystanders did nothing. At all. The police were flabbergasted. Eventually a staff member in the vicinity saw something and called police. When I was attacked there was no one around to help. I was in the …

Counting my years

Happy Thanksgiving to my fellow Canadians! Usually I associate this holiday with a big meal surrounded by my family of origin. It was October 2019 when we last all got together and while I am building new traditions with my husband and daughter and enjoying a quieter less chaotic day, a bit of sadness remains. …

The Legacy of Maplewood Farm

My dad was away a lot when I was little and when he was at home there were other people to talk to and things to do. But once or twice a year he would take me to for daddy-daughter dates to Maplewood farm. I have vague memories of petting goats and smelling hay mixed …

Elaine and Elaina

Last week I had the privilege of introducing my daughter to her great grandma. After a lovely visit in her apartment we walked Grandma Elaine down to the dining room for lunch. "Oh, let me see the baby!" A care-worker cried as we peeked in the doorway. I chuckled at my very tall almost three …

Never Runs Dry

What goes comes to mind when you read "never runs dry"? For some reason the first thing that comes to my mind is alcohol. lol. (And my drinking experience is a couple of sips every year or two.) Specifically, "the wine is flowing freely" comes to mind. I didn't actually know what that expression meant …

Reflections on half a decade.

Today we dropped Elaina off for five hours of daycare (one hour for each year) and had a date in the rain. “Can you imagine if the weather had been like this on our wedding?” Forest asked as water sprinkled on our heads. He would have been a lot more comfortable in his wool tuxedo. …